The handyman.
oh no, the curse of the handyman is back. Apparently im mr FIXIT again.
SERIOUSLY, i dont get it why SOME people ONLY FIND ME when they NEED ME.
Im BADLY IRRITATED. happened before, happened again. Be is fixing some it stuff, or art or money? Im not the bank, not your personal graphic designer AND DEFINATELY not your it technician. Like you havent talk to me in so many years(depending on WHO!) and now u come knocking on my door, asking for my help. ANd especially for a MORE SELECT FEW who repeats this random PAUSE AND FAmilirity, this routine is becomming More ANNYOYING. Do they have any courtesy to treat me as A HUMAN BEING at all? or AM I A TOOL? im not doing anymore of that crap! period.
Blogged @ 7/25/2008 12:12:00 AM
The need
I just deactivated my wOW account. That brings a longterm game plan over, anyhow it was just leeching from my credit card since i havent been touching it for some time now.
There was some stuff i was pondering about since i read some walloftext here and there of some articles.Anyway, i would be talking about NEEDS... NO not that physical need!
So, i been seeing alot of people modeling after famous successful people and learning their stories and stuff. LKY, various ceos, billionaries; donald. But, truely, is there any USE in listening to them? Life is about chance/luck or if more stringently measured, a mathatical probability. A success rate of chance. I'm a believer in probablity, or at least a supporter of it. Historics prove that professional gambling, who has the amazing constant ability to conjure money out of luck bases this on a probablity strategy. History has indicated pure luck or (LOW probability occurances) has no consistent way of having the correct outcome and as such my status quo. So again, what are the chances of following these stories, or even the point of view? Viewing it in my terms, they are just a maths error. A margin error, the erranus 1 or 2% who happens to kiss the foot of lady luck and made it big, which is why their story is features and leds to a bias exposure, rather than soemthing for us to learn. But, if you do look at many of the success stories, they all share some similarities? something for us? perhaps so, but look again; statistics show that out of all these success? how many failed, its just the same as striking the lottery? I guess perhaps by adopting these charecteristics you do increase ur chance marginally? but does it matter?
So this brings me to NEEDS, everyone has a need? most commonly, the need to be special; to be unique, to be something out of the ordinary. This scientificially known as deviance, has many varients, tatoos;piercings;intelligence;money;attitudes;personality;character. Depending on how one's developes these deviance manifest itself in difference areas. One morally right person might condemn another person doesnt seem to follow certain norms but ironically they are all the same? I used to be so judgemental until about a year ago; a little tamer ; a little less judgemental but is that really? I realised that no; i had not changed, i was just holding back. i was still as judgemental as i was. I guess everyone likes the judged but not BE judged; it is a course of human nature. Again, this was probably a motivator for people. Some people cling on the being special, some just clings on to being routines in life; some god ; other sciences.
Essentially, what keeps you going when u get out of bed? its up to u but knowing or at least imaginging knowing how people tick has left me as judgemental but tamer on the outside? because it is exactly that i know how people tick that lets be have a peek at how cruel people are.Because for me, when i made the realisation that no matter how make realisations you make now, there will be more to come; and with each, i get more apathatic to the world.
Blogged @ 7/20/2008 06:39:00 PM
Terrific conclusion
"Do you look down on people?"
that was a question post to me yesterday, and i thought about it
This is with regards to DMC, of course. And i asked the person do you think i look down on people? Well fortunately that was a NO. I guess some people misinterpret the rambling on my blog. Lets make this clear, as with many other people's blog, this blog is exclusively for me, if you dont like it? leave. Please dont misinterpret the information within it. I have even taken the extra effort to take out the tagboards and other links. Im not stopping you from reading it, but essentially, its a future reference for myself. Basically, i talk about what i achieved , what ive gotton and what i felt at this point in time. Somehow this got warped into arrogance? apparently this dmc shit doesnt stop. i have already left, whats with the hating? oh so and so is short? so and so is a loser? oh im loving it! i hope when you fall, no one is there to catch you.. i certainly won't
Blogged @ 7/14/2008 10:59:00 AM
An interesting journey.
It came as a sudden realisation what my life is these days. Everywhere i go, i see people's life falls nicely into place as if god had a hand in it. Everywhere i go, i see romance in the air, all things related to it. Today's journey to and fro from home to school was no different. I realised that this was happening so quickly, even with my closest of friends. It just feels empty these days, just empty. Perhaps it is envy, or jealousy or a strange new feeling, i dunnoe. Life feels so empty without someone to share it with i guess, probably socialised by the bigger society into thinkng this way, but i guess it doest really matter. I guess the sense of incompleteness is starting to weigh in as i grow so much older. Seeing this heartbroken girl crying on my way home, was provoke some thought and yet i guess love is a gamble. I only fear that it is the obsession of the idea of love has taken over rather than one that is true. But is there any true love? Physical Attraction, Security , Personality is essentially what i guess makes up attraction, so how does one know if its really,truely perfect? I suppose love is just that elusive. For me, i might not be a model, or cash strapped to drive a porsche or have the best personality to wow you. I only have what i am today. I wont claim to have a sad life, or a perfect life and been through what the average man didnt. I guess everyone has their own life story to tell, but what you see if wat you get. Call me traditional, but i prefer to meet people through CCA,SCHOOL or just activities i do together, i suppose it helps me understand that person better. Today has, i guess, been another day i thought about such things again... i swear, i want to take the initiative, because nothing charms the socks off any girl than someone taking the first step. But... there isnt much of a choice! not that im picky or anything, it just doesnt feel right? does it ever? i just hope whoever or whatever has a plan for me please show it to me soon
Blogged @ 7/03/2008 11:15:00 PM
