Emo Kid
Today was such a BAD day, woke up, thinking about stuff that really affected me. Actually , come to think about it, its quite nonsensical. But the day really was quite a drag, i was really unhappy and possibly angry. I wasn't really thinking about anything in particular but rather, just thought about some damn emo stuff. Still thank god, i had this particular friend, who chatting with me the whole day on msn and phone, really brought me some perspective. Quite surprised that person is actually pretty down to earth and perhaps helped me find out why certain things are so.
With this, i realised that you really have to grab things if you want it. Sitting around at home isnt helping. Time-lines do help somewhat, giving some urgency to do stuff. I also realised that i just have one more weakness in which i have to correct, i need to correct. Perhaps thats why ive been holding back all my life. Perhaps thats why i was never confident of myself. Now thats all about to change.Truely, i must thank that person =) today would be such a crappy day to pass without you. Hmm strangely, my other friend, who i thought would be very comforting, didnt quite giveme that effect. something to ponder about. Guess i shouldnt be feeling insecure about these small issues. Ive got a long, great day tmr.
Blogged @ 4/11/2008 09:51:00 PM
Life's Unfair.
Or are you whining incessantly? The latter are is probably untrue. I remember asking this before, Have you ever met someone seemingly so perfect? Good looks , money , the smarts , the girls? Yeah didnt we all experience that some time in our lives. That lucky baztard? What i think , is that life is indeed unfair. Its true! Dont hide from that fact. Some lucky baztards got the killer looks, some have so much money ull kill for it. Remember your dream of a big house? or perhaps that yatch or that slick lamborghini? LIFE IS UNFAIR, but that shouldnt stop you from living your dreams or to try persuing them. Lazing around isnt helping. Period. I remember reading about people going to places, doing things with their lifes. It could be simple things such as prawning, fishing or just playing paintball ? Perhaps iceskating? but have you tried it? If you havent, you really should!
Being where i am now , i see no short of life being good to my friends, some of them rich; others having the good-looks bug, but if you seen enough of life, youll know that sometimes its not what comes inherantly, but your style, your technique , how you do something. Lets take looks, sometimes your like a vase. Too pretty, and you are left on the shelf. But how you place the vase(yourself) can sometimes be better than the pretty vase that attracts the oh so much attention.
So far, my lifes been a dull. Besides people dragging me out to have fun! yeah DRAGGING ME OUT. I just like my home too much! or i just have laziness in my bones. Iceskating was fun, though painful on the ankles, maybe im skating wrongly ? Think ive renewed ties with my best friend again ? Doing stuff together really bonds people i guess?
Thats all for today! If you see me, show me some love~~!!
Blogged @ 4/10/2008 12:44:00 AM
A Realisation
I finally realised something.
Ever since ive been to clubs and parties and sorts, ive always wondered why im not the kinda person whos been super enthu about hooking someone from there. Well, i guess the ideal vision for me is unfortunately, a long-term relationship. As much as i would like to deny this, and contiune in my fantasy of THE GAME, sadly thats the god honest truth. To me, parties is now about having a good time, if things go furthur, well i can go along with it. But i guess im still the traditional sort of person. Ha! the good ol' singaporean
Despite saying that, i got another realisation to write about. For this, i shall just go straight into in. The world is a effin' cruel illusion. Shakespear couldnt have put it better, the world is a stage and the men and woman are merely just players. The poet was unfortunately depicting the cold irony that the world then was not much different from the world now. Everyday people put on fronts, they put on fascades to show their different worlds different images. During work, we like to show we are dilligent. during play, we like to show we are fun. To impress people, there are many shows, being witty, mysterious, intelligent, adventureous. Some people loves this play, and some people do not. This is movie of society in itself, the very fabric of structure.
To reject this place, would be translated to into people who reject the ideas of a facade... being yourself? so how far can being yourself bring you in the world? unless being urself means being hardworking, or the ideal charecteristics of your "world"/environment, it probably wouldnt be very far at all.
This leads to society's defence against these rejectionist; isolation. To bridge this gap being the compliant and the non-conformist, people compromise. When people do not like to do something, and people who well, be themself... people compromise and if you dont. you are REJECTED. isolation-socially.
This stage cannot be defeated, it cannot be totally comprehend- , but like they say since you cant win, embrace it. but we have been doing that all those years. pretending, acting, playing ? we are all masters of it, but the best will always take the top seat. Saka, Bsing , Wriggling your way out, essential skills of the future, today =)
now thats something schools dont teach in modules
Blogged @ 4/02/2008 10:53:00 PM
