A moment of silence
Yes,indeed the rumours are true...ive confirmed by multiple reliable sources however... the cause of it we do not know.I do not pretend not to be greatly affected but it has dampened my joy abit.Despite our rare chances of interaction,i met her many times on different occasion..projects and work.I do admit she was pretty easily angered but her temper was just very mild.She treated her students with food and stuff which i must say i find very surprising...such a caring teacher.I do wonder how the people are going to be affected by this event esp the digital production and form class.Speculations about such things are bound to arise but please use effort to suppress it.
I dedicate This song im playing to her and the rest of you out there.
Faith Hill - There youll be
Good Charlottee - We Believe
For those affected,
My Condolences
Yours sincerely
Besley.
We are all the same.......
human in all our ways and all our pain.......
so let it be.........
Blogged @ 7/28/2005 04:29:00 PM
The Lightning Tower
Defeat of the GrandMasterit seems that the time of tests are comming yet again,where the past do not matter..for the future lies a path that many must go yet previous results does not count.I do admit that i am afriad with of course much taunting from randall and his mrs chan example student but of course from myself.Question pop into my head...What if i failed...I could not afford to fail.I cannot waste my time.I MUST NOT but yet this semi-solidified path of the future seems so real.
From the pupil profilling form i filled up,i do noticed i lack much REAL achievements...what i do have cannot be said or recorded.The feeling of your potential unknown is sometimes fustrating but i live with it.It leaves me cautious that the precarious situation of cyber crimes when i read todays news on a singaporean who stole 15k from fake credit cards and jailed for 8 months while even the easiest to do such as wireless zone tapping could now be a serious crime.I mean there isn't much harm stealing unlimited bandwidth anyway unless you are doing something really draining.I mean siphoning abit doesn't hurt anyone but thats just my opinion.
I do feel that i am somewhat weak from the fact i do not know much on my vunlerable subject such as maths and chem.However,it can be assumed that i have confidence in myself to buckup in time IF i start NOW but the question is of how to START.Revision has become extremely intensive in school cuz we finished syllabus..although it seems alot but it is de facto that it IS NOT.I DO appreciate everyone of my friends helping me along the way...and i think i built much rapport amongst them still selecting my favourites.Of course naturally i do favour the people in power but i do not leave out the others.
Well i think i wrote alot of "I"s and i infact still have alot of write but thats for today i think explaning that i must defeat the grand master of my life.myself.I admit i am somesort weak because i cannot control myself For what is wisdom without application.
First is to admit
Next is to Plan
Then Do the Plan
Follow on with Improvements
DO WHateva It Takes(In short)
Blogged @ 7/22/2005 08:04:00 PM
Do we believe?
As i said time is RUNNIGN OUT
3 weeks to PRELIM.HOW?HOW?
do u not see HOW WE ARE GOING TO FAIL
ITS TIME NWONWONWOWNO again
Rise From the ashes.
Time is no longer a luxury we can spend.
ITS A NEED we HAVE TO USE CAUTIOUSLY.
everything today seems brighter FOR ME ANYWAY
BUT STUDYING MUST come SOON
STRESSED!
FOR THOSE WHO HEED MY WARNING.You are Wise.
For those WHO DO NOT.You will find out WHY?
Blogged @ 7/21/2005 04:47:00 PM
When everything seems pqipwqifpqkgpk!
well i can tell somepeople have a new insight of ME.
not expecting that im infact deeper than what they previously thought.
it just goes to say how some people can actually hide their true self so long.
but in this interaction i have seen to reflect on myself
i just noticed how careless i have been.in work and stuff
and in pressure i actually buckle despite how you may think
i seen it in oral...it was quite serious.
anyway as i wrote that im @ step 2
and stuck @ it ...not pt decieving myself.....after all 3weeks to prelim...
so.....i skipped NAFA OMg so did the whole claass anyway...sure tio KAN
but nvm...and servers are in a mess AGAIN and i just got informed someone and the thing has managed to reach a understanding....hmm intresting how life turns out with abit of mutal interaction. not back to my mad spastic self which actually happens to bring joy to myself.i mean since it doens't hurt anyone and it does positive things..might as well do it...
Blogged @ 7/19/2005 05:16:00 PM
Well just wanted to say
i had a brilliant time on sat :)
ive gain new insights and inspiration into my own life
realising the past ignorance i had
being wise truely isnot about knowing everything but rather knowing u in fact do not know everything.
sometimes i do wonder about what stupid things mr qwek says makes sense about the difference between being knowledgeble and wise...
now i noe....
Blogged @ 7/17/2005 12:19:00 PM
Talk About It.
1.Ive just discovered how fast gossip can spread..Honestly i say one thing and the day after ive got even tai hong knowing...i shouldn't kept my mouth shut about myself as i always haved.
i mean WTF!. i thought it was between us,i though there were only a few people who could haved leaked it but thats not really the point is it? sigh....
2.I also made another discovery on the issue of a certain "THE thing" apparently it still believes that he is trying to make the world a better place and that people are distaning from him.it also thinks about HOW PRECIOUS LIFE IS...i noe surprising.i mean do u read other ur friends blog even once in 2 months? if not i dun think u have to right to ask.
3.i think mr x2 has discountined his meets with wi*** and i think thats a nice choice but whatever it is i support it.
4.well im it seems ive realised more true friend i have and more fake friends.. and some true into fake i wonder...anyway listening was great ....
5.Singapore has made a agreement with US and hence we may risk terrorism ....
dunnoe but has appointed a envoy to sg so i think its a good start.
6.mr x3 roughtly noes about miss x's little secret i believe.i do wonder how everything leaked out though..im sure its not me unless i got drunk or smth and i didn;t not but thats impossible.but i believe mr x3 pieced everything together by himself so it cannot be considered leaked.also i think that miss x has a little discussion with mr x4 @ yewtee on a day which i cannot figure..that could be a leaking pt to the problem.
Blogged @ 7/15/2005 07:46:00 PM
Time of repentance
Well o level oral just past and the end result is SCREWED.
i think many people found difficulty in today's question but i persoanlly feel im going to be in deep shit.but well heres the new plan. Listening = HIGH --> divide between oral + Good written = A2. hopefully it goes as plan as everyone noes life cannot always go according to plan
so with the exams down to a 2 digit figure already (as in O level not PRELIM) i think its about time i work on a schedule.This is to facilitate enuff hours to studying to actually know where im aheading towards.Everything is already done so lets not cry over spilt milk.
just for the record.i have a sudden realisation of the real friends in the "real friends" group.i noe its abit confusing but if u noe u noe and u dun well u will in future.a real friend will defend you when necessary and not abuse you.Well fun and joy can be derived from some nasty fun but i think when it gets too far.....i think the person must stop.I am only human but the brave front i put on isn't always as strong.
Studies.Life.Digital.Sports.
The Future.
*Schedule should be out soon
Blogged @ 7/11/2005 07:48:00 PM
Destiny is CALLING ME
according to nico, cl oral should be pretty ez but these things u aren't too sure
im abit nervous about it since its so near :anyway school had a dialogue today which is kinda suxy...nothing we say ever goes into action anyway..whats the point?
well today didn't have much to say
For those who believe,no explaination is necsessary but for those who do not, none will suffice.
:)
GOOD LUCK TO ALL
Blogged @ 7/08/2005 07:41:00 PM
Plague Of Pessimism
well lets start off again.first things first my ENGLISH ORAL WAS SHITTY
i committed 8 unforceds errors and i actually said shit infront of chong
AND SHE HEARD IT OMG.
so i think im gonna fail unless got retest but she was saying my vocab was GOOD but its the elaboration and links .. i noe lol i talk fast and sometimes u cannot catch it
so anyway some1 answered to be recently about "perceptions of right and wrong" being extremely personal....i mean yes certain things have "grey" areas which is something like a WHITE LIE as in a lie to which u committ for helping someone.BUT i believe some point of view for "RIGHT" is actually very obvious.WHo doesn't noe ur suppose to NOT kick a cat and help a old lady across the road and maybe even jump into the sea to save a drowning person. who think its not RIGHT? i mean theres a kinda of universal "GOODNESS" which u noe its right and wrong and if u dun ...im sorry to say UR FUCKED.so anyway thats for that stupid question which i found damn fustrating sometimes
and today is 5 days to chinese O ...time sure do past fast and hopefully i dun caused the same errors as today's english....ill hope to get a nice mark.i hope to get on with it but at the same time have more time..so contridictive but hmmm confusion
HOMEWORK IS ALSO Pileing and stuff even chinese must study cuz who noes if u did well in augest and if u didn't do well and din't study for this few months ... UR SCREWED AGAIN.
lvl test tmr which waves,speed,sound --> im wasn;t absent for the core lessons during sec 3 ..hope i can make up for it.Chem is getting farther and shit,..DIEING
well ipod was nice and stuff..helps me get incline with my music self lol and lukas likes the killers ..SO LAST WEEK lol nah just kidding
and to GET A LIFE. truely u must get a life ..i suspect its nick cuz hes usually quiet and stuff
and word of advice nick:remember to mix with the right crowd
to KWAN: stop ur DRINKING thax
im really getting fustrated these days with a "online" and "offline" problems...studies and stuff
hopefully not financial and social yet.
well for those of u who think im all cheerful and confident.lol i think u dun truely understand me.
i really believe everybody has problems but things such as smoking is really against me..i got nothing against them but its just wad keeps me from it anyway.
btw i did something today,GOD HELP ME
Blogged @ 7/06/2005 09:41:00 PM
