Usual case, no time...blog....absence..back..
Feels like alot of things to say after being missing for so LONG! Lets start with the most important thing! BIRTHDAY! well it was both happy & sad at the same time. Well 18th birthday always seems important i guess, @ this age, u start to feel alittle old and the urgency to do something with ur life seems abit more.. well urgent!. I always though it was gonna be a special birthday and it did! Fell sick on that day, stuck @ home, it was quite sad and yet, surprise, surprise Many people visit me and all the nice messages! however some disappointment, u know some other pals, lets just say somewhat makes me sad. so much effort, so much time and no RECIPROCATION. of course, i can't expect returns when u give , just like u dun expect charity to give back when u donate. But it was nice , to remember ur lil significance to the world.
AC has been abit on the sidelines for me these few days, and yet i regret not going into some of these activities. some of which are oh so important, but no more SICKNESS and i guess im back on track, clearing finance.. doing all the paperwork and stuff. Laser Challenge memo seems to be a very significant one, conceptually. It seems that AC's downward trend from the past might change! and we are the turning point. yup NYAA's 9 day trip to malaysia was very FUN!, but i feel myself being pressured into paperwork again, sigh.
The new acad year has started, more pressure , more stress.. but im okay thinking about SIP and all the various shit i have to plunge into just to get that glorified piece of paper. Just abit more and perhaps i can be proud of that crap paper that is so treasured.
I always tend to think that i can see through people, and i always know who is good and bad but yet, i always fall into this trap of knowing and yet contiuning... perhaps it is not in my place to judge others when i fail to correct my own mistakes.
