well , as usual im bak blogger after months of collecting webs, so many things happened after this semester started. I can remember vividly how i was so alone, so isolated in the beginning. However i sense the good in them , and i contiuned , knowing there was to be some akwardness. This was AC, as i knew it then, just after i got active during the Amazing Race.
Through the months, we bonded... got closer , i started understanding what was happening... we organised Rockamania, we did many things! and hey i even got into main comm , by fluke or skill? but it didnt matter. Studies-wise took a hit definately, not too sure about results-wise.AC wasnt many things but one thing it was is time-consuming. I found myself dedicating myself to AC but i never regretted for a moment, it was an experience, a pleasure. Somehow, in the midst of it all , i have like a trillion things to do... reports,presentations my memos,projects , courses and it was least to say stressful. I have yet to master time-management but i got by. Well Today, somehow got psychoed to join SAFRA race and got in. The selection proccess was unusually tough, maybe cuz i wasnt mentally prepared or smth. Again, somehow weicheng & i got selected, half my mind hoping that would never happened... but it did anyway. However, weicheng asked me something on the track just now , which was very self-revealing. He pointed out many weaknesses i had, and i was well-aware of them. Why didnt i dare to do things, why did i fear competition? At the back of my mind, i always wanted to achieve something, and yet it struck me that this happened before. DejaVu? well in some sense, in the past, i had the same problem... and yet this has is back to haunt me. The good news is however, ive improved and it would be interesting how my character can still change for the better. I do understand that this race will take alot from me, and i will learn alot more. Being in Ac has changed my life, be it mentally, physically or spiritually... its seemingly ordinary activties is actually all-pervasive and affects every part of your life. You either sink or swim.
