VOX POPULI!
VOX POPULI!
POWER TO DA people.
of sorts anyway LOL
we are back again to the blogggggggy
AND FInally i dun have to put in bold large red characters anyone's birthday =>
With no intention to start World War 3 or SOW DISCORD ..disrupt harmony or anything equivalent, i would just wanna say something about the
FANSTASTIC outing the group gave themselve yesterday.Lets get down lets get down... o i meant only person who was missing was mr ZY
so does that bullshit about putting effort to save the group acutally carry any weight
or
WAS THAT JUST A PILE OF BULLSHIT. and the answer is NO. =Oby skills of crossreference from mr zy's blog there was actually quite a sad misunderstanding.
according to qwek, the groups usual organiser AKA RINGLEADER, he assumes that ZY didn't wanna go cine but j8 and hence didnt want to go
BUT
this was not the case, but was CLAIMED to be the IRRESPONSILITY N INDECISIVENESS OF the organiser for not making a CLEAR AND TERSE CHOICE in the venue. but, nonetheless in my opinion, both were at fault. someone could have pointed that out in a obvious yet polite manner AND of course the someone could be more clear in the decision.
stop turn take a look aroundddddddd......................
>and NO THE REPLY HAVEN"T COME
COMMON SP U can do better and send me a yes reply quick
:) so for the record i think im gonna apply a course transfer if i my appeal fails
during the half year interval of the poly.
and also for the record again,TO ZY, so what if i was sowing discord
MUAHAHAH * ADDS EVIL LAUGH*
can't i be sinister just for one day +X
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reference:decoder m
sometimes some triggers make me relive my past,
sometimes i wish i didn't have to suppress some memories
but slowly, im once again getting up from the floor
rising to the challange again
lost is pretty good actually
but the devices they are using
getting very repetitive ...
gets boring...
soon...
and james blunt is not all about YOUR BEAUTIFUl :his other songs are nice too.
im starting to feel that rui is getting distant despite him saying otherwise
i guess the lifeline of friendship does depend alot on the marrige of convience.
it depends alot on circumstances.the thing about friend withstanding the test of time?
in this modern day, its close to none-existant
well im lookin to not rotting at home soon =)
good day to all
Blogged @ 3/26/2006 08:57:00 PM
"Its true we don't have much money ,so what we have to do is think"
"Its true we don't have much money ,so what we have to do is think"
-Ernest Rutherford(Father of science AKA The guy who spilt the atom)
Surprise surprise, i was thinking it might not happened BUT IT DID
i slept pretty late, not one called me and i missed the outing LOL
again. its getting kinda annoying, and its not exactly my fault.
baztards.Anyway turns out i didn't miss that much, since rui defected from us AGAIN.
hmm seems the word again is used alot.. history tends to repeat itself... hmmm..
1 Regret was not being able to help with bob though, he definately needs the help atm.
rui also :\ how can u pangseh US!!!!!..or them... they waited for u leh...
you this kinda friend.....
WHAT ARE U DOING.
BTW remember to leave me a msn.
im bored here
anyway im not sure if bob is giving himself too much stress or is that the school as he claims it to be. maybe if he relax abit.. let go.. see things abit less seriously he would be able to appreciate the advantages of being there.!
awww i notice linze nv blog already... i was missing his original potatoes & dota post..
always fun to read stupid things Lol.
and im still waiting...for the appeal...
waiting... pigs can fly and world is cubic soon
on a more..serious moood...HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY
without look <------------ please.
if u dun......OMG WHAT KINDA FRIEND ARE U.
Blogged @ 3/23/2006 08:45:00 PM
Fat..Juicy gossip!
*GASP!Fat..Juicy gossip!!!!!
well here goes again
HAPPY BIRTHDAYRUIso many birthdays.. makes me wonder how young i am.. how much i still have to learnlike trying to not be a fat potatoe.
errr,well cj seems set on quitting yjc to join the ranks of poly, didn't think it was a good idea
cuz hes leaving due to stress.. but hey what do i know..i just think its not prudent to leave jc now,the long regarded styrotypically "safe" route. i mean your life will change alot just by making this decision.Im quite worried for him, in case he makes a bad choice and the consequences.. well thats just unimaginable.
FLYING POTATOISHLY,getting some ideas from ZY
i think people are METAL,MAGNET or SUPERMAGNET
but i dun think weather thats important. so what if some people attracts other people..
it could be looks or intelligence or something but why do we bother, its more the attitude that counts :). be a concern mental, sooner or later someone will realise how important you are.
stupid lift alarm is ringing at this hour...how annoying but too bad for the people inside
lol.fishy how friendship ties strain so easily in the face of convinence.but as i said many times before, its inevitable. why attempt to contiune its struggaling state... we just have different time,scedules. slowly we will drift apart. whats important is we treasure ... now..
its odd how i feel disassociated with some of my friends these days, maybe thats cuz we no longer have mutal things to talk about, why? cuz we are seperated...hmm i wonder how many friends i can keep 3years from now..
o well poly is about to start, my appeal hasn't been replied yet and im still waiting..
so excited about school :) even though part of my heart still remains in agony because i didn't make it to jc. seems i have some friends there so it shouldn't be too hard to adapt.
life is still extremely -__-" so far
"the world's still spinning,and im still living" :D
"when your down to nothing,god is up to something"
lol. what bullshit
ooo the alarm stopped.. just nice
END
Blogged @ 3/23/2006 12:11:00 AM
Succinct & terse
First things first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAYeric.lol. and mingrui's birthday is comming up :D
lets all wish happy bday to the lil babies of march (((:
okay.. soo moving on,
i had my medical today and IM GOING BLIND!!!!!!!!!
nuuuuu 100 degrees ALREADY. HWOHWOHWOHWOHWOW
i dun wanna wear specx. lets see what i can do about that
.. i dun think i look good in them ANYWAY
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
*THINKS*
and i added some weight... : very soon i become linze's imaginary fat potatoes
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
dammmit need to run more , maybe once school start i will join track also LOL
ever see a potatoe FLY? HEHEHE.
Anyway our qwek's group should be dissolving soon.. sad but i think its inevitable
any efforts to resist will just end up with all of us suffering,
i cannot disagree with this fact..afterall we all have different lives to lead and different schedules to keep up with. im sure we didn't hope for this but well .. we shall see if our ties can withstand the strain of time.
lol i was reading bobs blog.. and he seemed to screwed up a certain outing.. lol!
jovial side of bob? :\ hmmm well if ur reading this... even cheerful sides have limits
maybe u brought it too far ;) i would like to hear the whole story b4 passing out remarks LOL.
eka also plays cs LOL but i think i play more EMPIRES.. mod of hl2.. mods are so much nicer anyway -_-"
kwan... u seem depressed.. come talk to my when ur free.
its been a long time since we last talked.
: well its the end of today's entry.. im bored but lets give me something to think.. hmm
do you actually think kindness and concern is reciprocated by the people u give them to?
am i naive and gullible to think that? hmmm everything up to now contiunes to point that way.
just some stalwart slivers of hope that there maybe some sincere people left out there.
Blogged @ 3/21/2006 12:19:00 AM
A not so good title.
I was reading someone's blog again...
its so weird how gullible people are when u are overly concern about something.
Sometimes its hard to differentiate the attentionseekers from people who really require your dire help.
Sure you can use death and sadness as a cover; a fascade, but then u will never really see the people who care concern about you.
malaysia educational national universities allow people who fail into their institution.
Anyway had a soso game at dota today -_-", not sure why our team become so hyper after that.
i was apathatic about it.. i think i becomming immune to it.. signs of becomming pro? or just getting goddamn bored. not too sure.
im still looking for a good friend lol..if u know what i mean.
True Concern and Mutual intrest.
No one currently is providing that YET
Can't be forced though lol
i think im stating the quailities of a soulmate or partner or maybe just a goddamn good friend :doesn't really matter though, you are out there somewhere.. +D
maybe im just feeling bored or smth lol
lets see how this turns out
i got a feeling my appeal will fail.
and in that case, i already planned everything so
i think im all go for my new school
i can hardly forget what got me into this rut in the first place
but stated many-a-times, i will try to keep looking forward
o did i mention i was trying to learn the guitar?
lol i am.. not very successful yet but im bound to learn it eventually
the help from eric is greatly appreciated but...
he seems abit too bz to help me anyway, cannot blame
im sure they have their own problems too. but the intention didn't go unnoticed anyway
well nite everybody
turning in on a not-so-happy mood
hopefully tmr would be a brighter day :)
peace
Blogged @ 3/19/2006 12:08:00 AM
I shoulda never crossed it.
finally got out of my house again =}
watched the dorm with jin and gang.
it wasn't too bad, its not exactly a horrer show
more like a moral-drama show kinda.
anyway i was very noble of the kid to save his friend
very noble indeed. the show tells us that even thought that kid thought
no one cared about him but he learned from his friend that he himself
exhibit this kinda behavoir. The entire show revolves around friendship
and change.just a kind reminder to us all how important true friends are.
im so very fed up with not going to zouk despite both positive and not-so-positive comments about it. always wanted to go in, of course it comes with all the kiddies cuz my age is neither here nor there. its kinda inbetween the kids and the teens :\ well kinda if u know the clubbing methods.
eka joined dota. lol and hes more nonsensical than ever!
right..pro...right...
mings in malaysia! :\ hope hes having fun.
though i doubt itfeel free to giveme a call =P
i may wanna go out XD
Now.. WHO WANTS BREAD?
Blogged @ 3/18/2006 12:26:00 PM
Somewords remain hard to say still...
WEEEE im back.
finally got back the blogging mood again =X
lets begin off with many thax for the compliments cj has given to my blog =P
and my blog wuvs u too.
and ive been hearing through some it project the juniors are doing in mshs and i found it quite funny. they just found out brother's jucussy(spelling error i think) is REAL! but they dunnoe the TRUTH behind it la lol. and its quite funny how mdm wong(music teacher) is still frequently absent. alot of new teachers comming in, lol hope i still know the school when one day i return back.
AND guess what.
my guitar string SNAPPED on me. stupid thing... sound so out-of-tune so i was busy fiddling with it and SMACK. it broke. sigh gotto find somewhere to restring it and restart learning.
quite happy with my progress though learned the G Chord b4 it went smack on me.
im still looking for a new shoe :\ been around everywhere still cannto find..i was thinking airforce but my friend say its way too common.. but its NICE WAD.. i want a pair..
and since this paragraph seems too short i shall contiune, that i found ben's blog LOL
amazed i see a music streaming javascript wooo maybe its copy & paste OR NOT?
lol just realised he values the importance of education...woot didn't see that in him.
where was i errr i right i was listening to the music and i realised alot of songs are so....emo and uses i love you and sorry and stuff.. lol i realise that it may be easy to say it now but i just can't say it...infront of people loL ... maybe its my pride or smth lol its really hard.....maybe there why theres msn... its easier to say =.=
poly news:
well my strings are failing me, maybe its just fated.. all i shall disclose is that ive contacted the highest of high in the infrastructure and i still i cannot move a thing. to be repetitive... maybe its just fated, a blessing in disguise maybe, hopefully everything in my life will turn out right.
its one of the hurdles i must pass. at this point i realise my vision of a jc life is totally destroyed.
i no longer have one or will have one.pity.. i really know how fun it is. my entire plans are ruined. in qwek's way of saying... god has chosen for me. what nonsense,looks like i really am going retail at tp... more than possible anyway. wish me luck.
ZOUK CANCELLED!
why? all because stupid qwek couldn't do things in a timeline
baztard. how are u gonna do anything next time.
i suppose im partially to blame...haiz
no wonder people forsee the breakup of the qwek group soon.
if ur reading this ,qwek, well the breakup u forsee is happening faster than i expect
if u dun do anything soon, it will spilt very very soon. ive been talking with the individuals
but i guess its inevitable. i can slow it down but ultimately it will happen. so treasure the time we have left.
can't wait for friday again, my old randall group is out again =P
the people who thought me the value of true friendz and generosity.
with the special special guest jin again =P
speaking of which i convienently accidentally added, him to eka convo yesterday LOL
but well in a way we got interrupted.. so if ur reading this, YONG JIN ASKS IF U REMEMBER HIM... UR EX-YJCIAN FRIEND.
Besley
BYEEEE =D my blog
see u soon
Blogged @ 3/15/2006 07:17:00 PM
Once in a very long time
well yesterday was just one of those old days back in the mid of sec4,
one of the days where we stayed out DAMN late for no reason, stoning for no particular reason
so somehow fate brought me to rush down to the st nix funfair :D with some encouragement by mr qwek :p. originally intended not to go LOL. i found their funfair 1000xxxxx more extravagant than our own school one. they had weird machines that spun people around.. something like a rollercoaster, had thier own paste mania and stuff. although it was goddamn crowded la, lotsa kids running around and stuff. I personally don't like crowds, no not people, crowds. i mean a lil people is fine BUT that was crazy its radiating heat like crap man,i had to squeesh through everyone just to walk 100m or something, but i did expect something like that cuz i been to some other fun fair like acs, always the same thing.
anyway special thax to qwek's sister and michelle(qinyi & mingrui's jc fwends) for entertaining and guiding us around :P. hope we didn't take too much of ur time
its always "funner" to have u guys around
We met with MORE 4e people, whats this man,very soon i can go to a reunion party with them even without being in their class. Namely Eka and mary :0 . i find most of the 4Es have a little something something out of the ordinary. spunk. they have that coolness factor, or thats what i think. cool bunch of people to hang out with. And btw EKA's soon-to-be gf is pretty! omg .. o well kinda dun look at jc gurls these days, sure get looked-down on one.
anyway we sAW this hot gurl and some of us wanted to get her no. , in the end also never la but it was fun seeing that happen again LOL. always like that one. but didn't quite like the gurl anyway, pretty yes but like very poser leh dunnoe how to say. i find gurls that are pretty,ABIT SMart and have something something... i know when i get there =P
so the fun part was actually after the stnix. we heading off to the mrt... i had no idea where we were headed though, just join IN LOL. at least i had money for cab... lol money sure does wonders about confidence =P. so we abit hyper at that time dunnoe why , maybe cuz saw too many hot babes lOL. so ANyway we were rowdily singing all the way until the mrt and fooling around till we reached town la, we stone everywhere until we had a MAIN dinner at fish & co.
the stupid fish i ate wAS just too hot for me la,regretted abit of buying it. so we talked about vernoica(Codename) of some weird gurl which i just saw the friendster LOL. UGLY LEH HELP. =P. so anyway mary got our contacts and stuff and
that stupid eka tried to trick me :but i know better :p seems like a cool guy la but actually i didn't quite know he existed in mshs lol maybe cuz im on the LOWER levels la. pity, i wished i could know everyone but that cannot happen la. just get to know everyone i can ba :P
signing out ++++D
good luck to all
Blogged @ 3/12/2006 12:49:00 PM
I can't think of a title
----Contiune Reply-blogpost (ZY)----
well if its worth anything,we all feel like that sometimes.
take for example the most recent o level results...lol took me awhile to get over it
"NO offence"
well, if u want the ugly truth its fine
but i prefer a subtle way to know something
i take things in my stride
anyway on contrary, im neither pissed nor offended,i mean this in most honesty.
im actually very glad you responded to my blog. brilliant.
so ive been reading your lengthy post :P
and lets see...
why i like the get personal?
well maybe because its easier to settle things this way, on a bigger level, some messages i maybe sending across maybe misinterpreted. it might be unknowningly ignored.Rather, on a personal level, we get the points through easily. Of course down side is the potentially heated argument that may turn nasty but i decided these are risk i would rather take compared to the other party not getting my idea.
but i dun quite agree with the "I feel MOST PEOPLE are very shallow and superficial" part,
since i assume u are concern for ken substentiated by
"But if you are speaking to a person that you care about and are concerned for,I'm sure speaking nothing BUT THE TRUTH will help rather than telling lies."
so i conclude there are people around the world just like yourself, maybe not many but yes there are more than AFEW
and the wife part....
well lets just say ill take option A
"Understanding a person (I didn't said truely understanding)is more important than trying to force a change on a person.Everyone hates changes (correct me if I'm wrong) so rather than trying to change a person,why not change yourself instead and try to understand others and see from thier point of view"
yes sometimes changing a person is near-impossible but that doesn't mean we have to change ourselves.CHange is good but yet i find it important to stand-by ur own values. From time to time we can change for the others but yet again we also must let others change for u.
Just contiuning I quote " I don't deny I'm not stubborn to a certain extent" , that means that sometimes u must not change for other people.
"so why not make it a little good done for a greater good?"
life dictates opportunity.
take for example,during the crusades, lord balion didn't marry the king of jeruselem's sister and allowed another knight to do so, indirectly causing the fall of jeruselem to the mulims.we shall not go into detail but by marrying the king's sister, they could have avoided this( a little evil).
abit confusing? maybe it just means that we do not command cirumstance.
it commands us.
the next thing is on ken
we were just encourging him to take a arguably better path.
like i explained to him, if he can or cannot, its up to him.
and the example u gave on maths....
well im sure we all loath studying as a whole, just maybe u and i abhorr sci too,
but sometimes we do what must be done ie,studying.
hence we still succeed even though we hate it.
of course without passion to succeed is to be miserable because u do not like what u do
but self-discipline is the ability to carry on with something even though u do not like it because its the right thing to do.
COP.
this year >>18
Next year best? >> 15?
aim> 10?
why?
this is just in case he must wanna change course?
issit possible ken may want something even better?
maybe he wants to switch to jc?
getting a 10 guarentees his ability to change places.
"Knowing you can do it dosen't actually mean you can achieve it"
but its a step in achieving it.
"IS IT WORTH PAYING THE PRICE"
that only u can decide. was the price of freedom worth millions of lifes?
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on a more personal note:
i think my outlook perspective is fine
let me go do a little test survey :)))))
lol.
Blogged @ 3/10/2006 11:27:00 AM
ambiguity
hmmm can't help pondering stuff while reading zy's blog again.
in no offence or anything
assuming that im correct,i would think he sees me as very narrowed in my point of view
and i should "change my outlook"
but u know,i would to like to differ on that and apply it to himself directly.
with all due respect, i think my stands are infact considered with alot more perspective than others. i always make an effort to tamper cynicism and a more realist view.
instead i think that zy should actually change his instead of advising me to change mine.
instead of calling us(the people who disagree with him) stubborn...ect why not take a look at himself, can't u be the stubborn one? just maybe you could be.
in a most polite way i can put it, a review of one self is alot more important and knowing others,
self-awareness allows u to consider ur own strengths and weaknesses. anyway futhur on in his blog he mention about saying what u mean and hypocrasy.
ive learn that begin totally truthful doesn't work in this modern world these days, mixing and tampering truth and little bit of lies is the best combination it has. if u are to remain totally in truth,in the working world, u will be slaughtered, office politics are abit nasty if u don't know how to care for urself. now does that mean ur dishonourable? or dispeakable? i wouldn't call it that. anything done in for a positive sense is always good. or as best phrased that every thing has a time when it comes in conflict with its own values. sometimes a little evil has to be done for a greater good. despite saying all this, it doesn't mean what i say to ken was bullshit. i did consider what i said and yes it still depends on him for only when u think u can do it Then u really can do it. if he starts off saying some shit about getting F9s,then no one can help him. we can only advise his next course of action, we cannot walk the road for him.
ending off, i did say life was complicated didn't i :) heh .. no use denying the fact we are all pressured and well in a way depressed :P well good luck on the course all
Blogged @ 3/09/2006 12:32:00 PM
100th POST!
wooo 100 post :p
achivement. or not
depends on how u view it :p
today, march 07/06, flared again!
lost count i got angry for no significant reason
im just getting abit errmmm tempermental.
i wonder why.
currently im doing some confidential stuff
so can't say much about it
hopefully everything goes well
tmr i expect to recieve some news.
btw brandon,i recommand kaspersky.
suddenly i remember why i help people.
because in the darkness of times, when u seek help
u seek ur trusted allies for aid but when that fails
desperate times leads u to ask for any assistance
and thats when unknown people answer.
i try to pay it forward.
the world might be a better place after all.
....why do i speak in such a equivocal & ambiguous way?
no idea..just do
anyway i feel that alot of people are well in a certien aspect
disappointed in their results.
I know its partially our fault but hey sometimes life just bites u
and sometimes we already tried.
its strange how we see each level of person superior to us as fortunate
i really boils down to acecptance.
like i said on bnet..
counting from today..
4 years ago.. i was envious of no one
i was on my own,i proudly made it in mshs
maybe i wasn't RI or any very bright student but i got where i wanted
2 years ago, slightly disappointed i didn't make into my subject streams i was then beginning to envy
people who were smart,people who could achieve their pure subjects
after the o prelims and actual o leves
i was hoping. i was hoping for that same miracle that happened to me 4 years ago.
it didn't happen. why? because it wasn't humanly possible to catch up what i have loss over the past years.
and why was this?
i accepted my fate too early... i grew complacent.
Now, i have trouble with my postings,so do alot of people i know.. of course that isn't to say
i can't get what i want but imagine those that can't. u will live ur lifes wondering what ever happened if u did do well. will u be successful? and no one can answer that. sometimes we must accept the fact that god;heaven;nature or forces beyond our control is really well to put it simply. beyond our control.
but we must also see that sometimes, things are worth fighting for,things worth ur sarcriface.. things worth one last shot to change ur future forever.
we do not live in what-if,should,would,could land. we do not have the time to afford complacency, we do not live forever, we are neither gods nor immortal contridictory to what some people i know say (((:
what we do now is important. every thing u do, every action u take, every plan u make.. changes ur future,Today
All the best to all those fighting for what they believe in.
Keep fighting,do-not-give-up
Blogged @ 3/07/2006 11:45:00 PM
yet again.
Yet again, life puts more obstacles upon me.
just when i got up it hits me again.
seriously i don't know how much more of this i can take
either this is a very very bad year or its just fated.
im going to be at my wits end.
my tricks are running out.
my faith diminishing.
although many do not have gotten what they want, we still have hope
this is my final try to change my life forever.
but chances aren't extremely good.
DO i just resign to fate?
Do i give up?
Do i destroy everything ive created till now?
maybe...but for now im going to try everything in my resource and power to get where i want
what am i to do?
Blogged @ 3/03/2006 11:46:00 AM
