Change is such a strange thing, and changing people are strang-er. Its funny how i thought i had change all along, yet personality is so enduring. Its like bad habits, when it boils down to it, you revert to the basics again. The ugly old self. Im always afraid to step back into the past... i might become the thing i hate but then comes being yourself.
Its so contridictive, so overlappy. Its like all those other oxymorons, hard to decide.. hard to choose. These days, im picking alot of mixed signals from alot of different people. I am having a hard time though. Sometimes things are all good, some times its bad, i cant expect too much though. Even with some things are was fretting over recently. Ive made to effort to initiate, ive tried to be less evasive, I have tried. I tried to fix everythings thats wrong, and yet sometimes, it doesnt work.
Having said so, no one can blame me, God cant blame me for i HAVE did my best. ive looked pass the past and forged ahead, if the weather of a journey decides to take a turn for the worst, its beyond me. Though, the week havent been all that fun, its not to say none-existant =). Did have some here and there, trying to see the silver lining in every cloud X.
Oh if you havent noticed, i change the blog a bit... no more tagboards, it was abit unused anyway. And i decided the blog was more for a reflective and reference in future, instead of a public domain, although it can act like so. Changed the theme to something abit more emo, the current feeling i have these days.
