i just woke up today and realised how nice the people around me are,i was feeling down yesterday and im just i get abit cranky and i would think it was very obvious and suddently everyo
ne starts expressing their concern,its actually quite touching :looks like i didn't choose my friends wrongly and i wasnt wrong to treat them like scanctum sanctorum.
today is just a short post
dun feel like typing a long winded recount of what happened yesterday
let me write something for myself
Life wasn't that unexpected for me up to this point.
There was many hints along the way of my secondary 3 & 4 life
i remember quite vividly that mrs chan did recount a story about a student who tried very hard after a sudden epiphany the realise of studying maths but it was way too late for him and he didn't exactly got what he wanted. Not quite the fairy tale ending everyone would like. Well lifes like that. I had many expectations of myself at that point, maybe i was being overly confident of myself but there was always this tiny part of me doubting my own abilities which i chose to ignore.of course in the end we all know i didn't do very well. I don't know why i decided to ignore that cynical side of me,even with another event that is randall asking me what if we didn't do well for some subjects like maths. Maybe looking posivetively isn't as good as we thought.
Hopefully such a incident doesn't happen again.
These stuff are testing my faith.
I hope me as the Fidei defensor for myself
will keep it alive for as long as i can
but i don't deny that past event has changed me alot.
ne starts expressing their concern,its actually quite touching :looks like i didn't choose my friends wrongly and i wasnt wrong to treat them like scanctum sanctorum.