Guess what? while browsing a book, i had a sudden realisation of my earthly aspirations.
Coincidentally, my friends and i were also discussing a related topic of
nature vs nurture.
This started off as a projection of what i wanted to be in life..what i wanted life for me in future to be,
i suppose most of us really want a relaxing , rich life ... one without worries and the ability to splurge on luxurious indulgence.You know what? i want that too. i want to be a
boss of a gigantic company making tons of money..the ability to travel to world and no worry about not being able to afford nice things.
Then i ask myself, so how am i gonna convert myself into this rich fu**. and the answer is... i have no bloody idea. i suppose no one has.this also brings to mind the very idea of studying which is sterotypically linked to the concept of becomming successful in future. this is an idea of nurture.
Following on my friend's dicussion, i really ask myself why even bother to study. nature is powerful.. i gives you mental or physical powers. An advantage to be above all, put it in a way easier to relate, try teaching a "mentally-challanged" and a prodigy. definately its more worthy to teach the prodigy. the sad cruel fact that
one would hire a more intelligent over one less sometimes if this feature outways the dillgence of a individual.
Why we study is just the maximization of our total potential.
humans are so pathatic in such a sense, its actually sad. but there is nothing much we can do. such helplessness...
Backtracking into the topic, for some reason i have
faith in myself to achieve that dream still, yet im still underachieving.
Im still very disturbed by the fact of i have to go poly, ive been discussing it with close friends and such... they say its okay but u know what,
i can see through this fascade, this false front of consoling. its not that i dun not apprciate it but i have to face such a fact now. i will not allow this to carry on..
this progressive pattern of debacle. I will not be destroyed to easily. Ive seen too many success stories to be stopped now.I will make something of myself and all of you are gonna help me.
