Strange how i always blog at about this time,maybe its the serenity or the quietness.. the almost pin-drop silence of the atmosphere...its almost like you can hear silence.. rippling through out,enveloping you in its calm dampening effects.
Anyway i do not think i believe in "God" much,im neither religious nor superstitious yet maybe wishing for a higher power.A factor leading to rise of civilisations is the need to believe.The need to believe that your destiny is more than its mere existance, that is, a more meaningful purpose.But we need this belief no more,we are now independent.. yet ofcourse some hold on the fact of a higher being from vaguely known backgrounds.This is not to say there isn't "god". Im an agnostic and living in a secular society...but strangly its theorically possible there is a higher power of sorts.In my darkest time,it hardly matters who i pray to...its more of a calming effect.. a way to console myself without others doing that essential role.
I mean take for example "tougues"(im not sure spelt correctly),does speaking it help you become closer to god? does it make your millions of wishes have higher chances of comming true? i think not. anyway when did speaking a language become closer to god..religion defies boundaries of medium... isnt god treating everyone with justice and equality.And why do one want to be closer to god...is it because of self-fish reason? entry to heaven? wanting wishes to come true?. this is not "the way" , such selfish desires only proves to contridict the values of itself.SO why then do people want to learn "tougues", i have no idea.
On a lighter note, im thankful i didn't choose nyp.. the amount of things going on, its practically shaking the very foundations of the school's principles.Scandals, scandals,scandals. ha! Don't wash your dirty linen in public.
Side-tracking...
i hope eric's wc3 problem get fixed soon,im really starting to feel bad.. about him not being able to play..
anyhow i think i figured the problem was with the yousendit.com server closing the client connection b4 it was completed ,sending him with a partially functional .mpq which no doubt will have missing cdkey,access violation,data corrupt ect.
kwan is well. designing something about xbox 360 outfit or smth. who knows... really.anyway i dun really get why people love consoles and portable players so much. especially at teritary level education.
Consoles? ... why? better graphics ? suitable solely to gaming? yes but theres always emulator and why get 2 things while u can just get a computer that can do all of it.JUst on a sidenote, ibm has figured a way to trash the heat barrier for proccessors,stay-tuned for faster 32-bit comps again.
For psp,i know its portable.. but why do u need to play games EVERYWHERE U go.. im sure u can live with talking to your friends.its way more intresting than a pSP
ANd all this COST $$. imagine spending it for a nice meal! isn't it much more worthy than to save and save and be so "Draggy".
Life is so full of uncertainty, i quoted one thing i think is from lionel, "Know your limits,then break them".
I used to think people are naturally restricted by limits, but that is a way wrong concept. You maybe realistically bound by them but hey,if you keep thinking that, you are only gonna make it worst.
You definately should keep breaking new frontials, keep improving..only then are u maximizing everything humanly possible before being restricted by "natural boundaries"
I do believe its important to respect people.Their dignity;pride..its important to understand someone and show concern. im not saying go there and be a hypocrate or trying to create some sort of derranged contrivance. i saw this story from a blog about a uncle who went to this tissue seller who peddles his goods at 3 packets for a dollar. the uncle asked for 4,the peddler hastily agreed.Understanding the background of the seller who was old and not so well to do, i was thinking that stupid baztard. trying to negotiate with a less-fountnate person but i didn't take into account what he gave back.he gave back pride.This action of negotiation shows that the uncle treated him as a true peddler,seeing through his appearance.
then i thought it was hypocridical bullshit,but who knows it might be...but giving it a benefit of a doubt.
its really important to see through people's fascade and help them when they are down.i know am abit messy with all the crap today but, o well i tried to type it nicely :D
-Besley
Dwelling into the mechanics of the world
trying to forget his own problems
